Perhaps I DO know how to heal myself. Back is almost back to normal. Going to try mysore in the morning.
Last night D and I watched the BBC2's My Life as a Turkey. What an amazing show. You can watch the full length show for two months online. Not only did Joe (the biologist) become the mum to these wild turkey's, he shares all the lessons he learned along the way - including the emotional connection he made. He frequently spoke about how wild turkey's live in the moment and how everything we need is right here right now. I like how he used the phrase 'don't betray the moment'.
One of the best shows I've watched in a long time. The cinematography is amazing. I hope you take the time to view it.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Monday, August 1, 2011
August 1 starts with a back spasm.
I have not been around much in blog land. July was a busy month - work, life - family/friends, yoga. No recap required - just life.
This morning I was very much looking forward to being able to go to mysore practice. The teacher here only teaches one week out of the month. He just started this in July. I went to and it basically got me on the track of establishing my own early morning home practice. The idea being that I would practice three weeks and then go to his class one week out of the month.
So Sunday morning I was luxuriating in the fact that i didn't start my practice until 7:30am (compared to my 6am start). I did all of first up to garba pindasana and then started second series. I finish at Ardha Matsyendrasana. I was nice and warm so decided to practice the leg behind the head just to see how it feels. I start with my good side - left. Got it back there with relative ease. Then my right leg - it's always tight - so was just coaxing it back and forth gently (definitely not pushing it) and then it happened. I just felt my lower back spasm. Not a OMG what did I do - but enough to say okay that's enough. I'll just go and do my back bends and then finish.
Started to warm up for back bends (it's a home practice and my day to play and add things in) and definitely knew that I did something. Skipped back bending and just went into closing.
Had breakfast and definitely knew I did something but decided to ignore it.
D and I went for our walk back in the woods for just over an hour, back home, had our second breakfast, read the paper, took a short nap, another walk to the store and finally I acknowledged that indeed I had done something. I wasn't in pain - but I just couldn't arch my back - forward bends felt great.
What's interesting to me is that when D started to give me a massage - I just lost it - complete cry baby. Not something I often do, I have a very high pain tolerance. Maybe it's just all these little (and not so little) injuries that I've had this past year - whatever the reason I just really had myself a good cry. After the massage felt a bit better. At the end of my massage he rubbed this homeopathic rub that is to be used for headaches. Rubbed that on my lower back and it was basically like icey/hot without being sticky and smelly.
Rest of day just basically chilled and constantly moved around to see if my range of motion would improve. It wasn't looking good for this morning mysore.
Woke up through the night and just decided to pass. Got up at 5am and there was no way this cranky body was going to make it through practice.
So, here I am at work. Trying to make sure I get up and walk around every 30 minutes - fortunately only have two meetings - so I'm actually able to do this.
I'm able to arch slightly with no pain. I'm thinking I'll be back on for mysore in the morning and will just have to modify.
In the meantime I'm really wondering what is going on with my body - am I trying to do too much? Work can be all consuming if I let it be, family stuff completely occupying my mind, and then just living over here with all of the little differences - which I think I've acclimated too quite nicely except for the excessive littering habit of the locals. I don't know - now I'm just rambling.
Time to get up and do my walk about.
This morning I was very much looking forward to being able to go to mysore practice. The teacher here only teaches one week out of the month. He just started this in July. I went to and it basically got me on the track of establishing my own early morning home practice. The idea being that I would practice three weeks and then go to his class one week out of the month.
So Sunday morning I was luxuriating in the fact that i didn't start my practice until 7:30am (compared to my 6am start). I did all of first up to garba pindasana and then started second series. I finish at Ardha Matsyendrasana. I was nice and warm so decided to practice the leg behind the head just to see how it feels. I start with my good side - left. Got it back there with relative ease. Then my right leg - it's always tight - so was just coaxing it back and forth gently (definitely not pushing it) and then it happened. I just felt my lower back spasm. Not a OMG what did I do - but enough to say okay that's enough. I'll just go and do my back bends and then finish.
Started to warm up for back bends (it's a home practice and my day to play and add things in) and definitely knew that I did something. Skipped back bending and just went into closing.
Had breakfast and definitely knew I did something but decided to ignore it.
D and I went for our walk back in the woods for just over an hour, back home, had our second breakfast, read the paper, took a short nap, another walk to the store and finally I acknowledged that indeed I had done something. I wasn't in pain - but I just couldn't arch my back - forward bends felt great.
What's interesting to me is that when D started to give me a massage - I just lost it - complete cry baby. Not something I often do, I have a very high pain tolerance. Maybe it's just all these little (and not so little) injuries that I've had this past year - whatever the reason I just really had myself a good cry. After the massage felt a bit better. At the end of my massage he rubbed this homeopathic rub that is to be used for headaches. Rubbed that on my lower back and it was basically like icey/hot without being sticky and smelly.
Rest of day just basically chilled and constantly moved around to see if my range of motion would improve. It wasn't looking good for this morning mysore.
Woke up through the night and just decided to pass. Got up at 5am and there was no way this cranky body was going to make it through practice.
So, here I am at work. Trying to make sure I get up and walk around every 30 minutes - fortunately only have two meetings - so I'm actually able to do this.
I'm able to arch slightly with no pain. I'm thinking I'll be back on for mysore in the morning and will just have to modify.
In the meantime I'm really wondering what is going on with my body - am I trying to do too much? Work can be all consuming if I let it be, family stuff completely occupying my mind, and then just living over here with all of the little differences - which I think I've acclimated too quite nicely except for the excessive littering habit of the locals. I don't know - now I'm just rambling.
Time to get up and do my walk about.
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