Pain...

I know there must be a lesson in the pain that I'm experiencing and that I must be refusing to listen to it, hence the pain won't go away. 

It's been more than four months now that I hurt my back and my left leg has never been the same. I continue to walk with a limp that I very carefully try to hide. Until two weeks ago I continued with an almost daily yoga practice, but since returning from a work trip to Portland I stopped my practice - thinking that might help. It hasn't. Interesting, when in Portland I was practicing daily - except for the week-end.

While the summer has been okay I can't stop focusing on the pain that I've been experiencing. Even right now I feel the throb on the side of my left calf - it just doesn't go away. So almost daily I apologize to D for being such a bitch. At work I do my best to cover it up and for the most part succeed. This only means that when I finally do make it home I'm miserable until I have a glass of wine.

I have to deal with the pain, stop being a B, and get out of my funk. I just don't know how. I'm getting an MRI in the next few weeks to rule out anything serious.